Reserve
August 3, 2011
Ully Hirsch/Robert F. Nettleton Poetry Prize Award Co-Winner
We took our time on the trip
The Indian Reserve has cheaper gas, so we filled up our tank there
This small passage within the stretch
Where the houses are shabbier and a small house for gambling peeks out behind the stationw
Christmas lights in July and multicoloured decks
This place we go through each time we take the trip
You usually walk into the station to buy chips
And I sit in the car
Feeling lucky
You told me that the government throws money
I imagine the money settling on the ground
The government chucking it in this passage
It floating in the breeze and mingling with the flaky shingles of the half painted houses
You tell me money can’t fix the problems
In my mind the money could cover the holes
In the houses
And the potholes
Each time we arrive here I play a game with Aaron
This game is called “houses that I like”
Sometimes Aaron makes up stories about what goes on in the houses and I pretend to believe him
It’s easier this way
When we pull away from the station you’ve told me
Of the man walking along the road in the dead of winter
Of a child left at home
A broken bottle bloodied and smashed in the snow
The deep red mimicking a jolly, vivid cherry against the white
A pool of vibrancy amongst the bleakness
But I am protected by four sturdy props of glass
And pillars of metal and gas propelling me forward
And out
And away
And I feel lucky